What's that word?

Engulfed? All encompassing? A wash in? I really don’t know and can’t remember the appropriate word but I am crushed by grief today and it sucks. It’s been almost two years and I am still engulfed in grief. Everyone tells me it has only been two years and I will learn to “incorporate” the sadness […]

Oh Donovan, say it ain't so.

I have meet the man I am going to marry.  O.K. well I haven’t actually met him yet but I am going to marry him nonetheless.  We have been talking on the phone for two months and I haven’t meet him yet?  He calls me every few days and we text all the time or […]

Oh Donovan, say it ain’t so.

I have meet the man I am going to marry.  O.K. well I haven’t actually met him yet but I am going to marry him nonetheless.  We have been talking on the phone for two months and I haven’t meet him yet?  He calls me every few days and we text all the time or […]

The top seven things you should never say to a widow.

 Isn’t it great to have the bed and/or bathroom all to yourself? Yes, sure.  It’s certainly is not a glaring reminder that your significant other is dead.  People have actually said this to me.  Yes, I hated it when Peter would take up the whole bed.  Yes, I hated it when Peter would forget to […]

So…Your(sic) an art dealer

I am ready to be bad; I have finally figured out that I just want to have fun with boys.  I want to stop trying to force feelings and have a blast.  Everyone tells me the best way to have fun is to date someone fun. However not one of my friends has told me […]

I broke my own heart

I am on a plane back to Portland after spending the weekend away. The plane, my head and the people around me are spinning.  I am more hungover than I have ever been in my life.  Hangover implies drinking and I did a lot of that.  Plane implies travel and yep, that happened as well.  […]

Linda, Glasses, the Dealer and Rhino

Linda, Glasses, the Dealer and Rhino ALRIGHT!  That is it.  I am dating, no more fucking around.  I will have a first date after death.  But what is a date?  Coffee?  Drinks?  Do people still go to a full blown dinner?  Is a dinner too much to ask?  Who pays for said dinner?  If I […]

Code Talkers

Today is Christmas and I am in Puerto Vallarta.  Twenty-one years ago, in this very spot, I was planning how to be a married lady.  I was really only a girl but I was damn sure going to be a captivating wife.  I was on my honeymoon.  Today as I stated earlier is Christmas, why […]

Bitches of two kinds

When we were planning our family, Peter was dead set against using profanity in front of or anywhere near our children.  It’s funny for so many reasons.  If you knew Peter you would know that he could string together a list of profanities that would make a longshoreman blush.  So we agreed, no cursing in […]