Dorito Fat

If I can just get this buttercream frosting right this day will end perfectly. I can’t focus and I am stupidly trying a new buttercream recipe. My mantra right now is “I am so stupid, I am so stupid”.  I really need to eat a cake. A cake with buttercream frosting. Baking a yummy cake […]

Never. Gonna. Happen.

At the point in my short-lived dating life I have given up.  That’s O.K. I am finally good with being alone. So the next date I have I make an agreement with myself that I don’t really care if he likes me. In fact I’m going to be the most outlandish me I can be. […]

H.R.H. Porath

My son is a prince. No we are not descendants of the royal family.  He is the winter formal prince at his high school.  The term prince for most people brings to mind elegant attire and jewels that sparkle in a darkened room. For me, I hear the word prince and the movie Purple rain […]

What’s that word?

Engulfed? All encompassing? A wash in? I really don’t know and can’t remember the appropriate word but I am crushed by grief today and it sucks. It’s been almost two years and I am still engulfed in grief. Everyone tells me it has only been two years and I will learn to “incorporate” the sadness […]

What's that word?

Engulfed? All encompassing? A wash in? I really don’t know and can’t remember the appropriate word but I am crushed by grief today and it sucks. It’s been almost two years and I am still engulfed in grief. Everyone tells me it has only been two years and I will learn to “incorporate” the sadness […]

I look fabulous?

I have been told I look fabulous.  This phenomenon started about nine months after Peter died.  Everywhere I went people would tell me I look amazing and truly mean the compliment.  When it first started happening I was so grief stricken that I just responded with a mumbled growl, similar to the way Vin Diesel […]

This is how the fuck I got here.

We always loved to treat our kids with ice cream cake for their birthdays.  Maybe because in both of our families Baskin Robbins’ ice cream cake meant something celebratory was happening.  Something much bigger than a birthday.  It meant the Pope was coming over for dinner, even though neither my husband’s family nor mine were […]